How is it possible to not be stuck when we feel stuck, yeah all the self-help articles say 'just change' easy for them to say!!! But how?
That is where I am stuck in life right now. Feel like I can't go back, and can't move forward. STUCK!!
I know in my heart this is just a microsecond in the universal time period, to me it feels like a lifetime.
Feels like I will be here doing the same thing for the rest of my life! Struggling and struggling to get ahead and if I spend an extra ten dollars it always costs me more. So I gamble!
Nope doesn't help anything, just makes me feel worse. Not at the time but afterward! Kind of like drinking and having a bad hangover. I know it will happen, I know if I don't drink I will not have a hang over, but I would do it anyway.
Same with gambling! I know ultimately I will loose, but do it anyway. Now I need to raise five hundred dollars in a week and have no idea how to do that....
I work at my Ebay items, http://myworld.ebay.com/spovio/ and my
Etsy items https://www.etsy.com/shop/Suestreasures2012?ref=si_shop hoping I will sell something, but , no, I did not. I work at this blogging thing and it shows no actual benefit for anything. How people make money at it is beyond me. I know gambling is not the answer, and I know it only makes me feel worse after, but for the time I am in the casino I forget how stuck in life I am!!! I forget how hard I struggle to make ends meet. I forget how alone I feel, not lonely cause I can spend eons of time alone. I don't think about anything but the spin of the wheels on the slot machines. And it feels ok in the beginning, But!
When it is time to leave I know I have lost too much and don't know how I will ever replace it. I think about a second job, however, my full time job hours are crazy, and I am not sure anyone would work around them.
I also think part of the gambling habit is just that a habit. I like smoking and not really wanting to quit. Maybe I need to move someplace where there are no casino's. But where in the world is a place where there are no casino's within driving distances?
