Hi
It has been almost a month since I have written here, it has been a long depressing month.  I have learned in the last trip to the 'big' casino they always win... We may gain a few dollars but, in the end the casino business always wins.  I think the only way to really win is to own one.  I have thought about working in one.  I figure I could get the thrill of the casino and actually make money there.  And the best thing is I would not be able to gamble.  Yeah!!!  
I still say when I hit the big lottery I will rent a penthouse in Atlantic City right on the beach above a casino. I would be able to ride the elevator down to the casino floor.  I will be able to gamble my heart out since I hit the 'big' one and now have plenty of money to do anything I want.  Maybe rent an apartment in Las Vegas also. My favorite is the City Center complex.  It is right on the strip and next to the hotel my sister always stays at when she visits.  THAT would be fun.
When I hit the 'big' one, I will do volunteer work with my time and continue to make my bracelets which are available on eBay. My other blog has all the links to them, find them at suesladybugjewelry.blogspot.com/ 
Maybe if anyone reading this hits it big would go there and buy a couple to help me along.  I enjoy making them and they help to finance my gambling habit. 
So the last trip cost me alot of money which I do not have and it scared me to really stop until I hit the 'big' one.  A long time ago I watched a movie 'Let it Roll" which was about a man who played the ponies. He went to the race track and it followed his day while he lost and while he won.  Anyone who gambles can relate to it.  The highest of the highs and the lowest of the lows.  Every time I loose alot of money I always wonder why I do it to myself. Lately even if I break even I get angry because I wasted my time there for a good part of the day which I could have been doing something else.  Like cleaning or just relaxing.
Now I am trying that relaxing thing.  Laying on the couch. Or writing blogs. Anything to occupy my time and make extra money.  But I know I will go back.
My hope is the times become less and less, the losses become less and less, and the wins bigger and bigger.
Then I hope I can leave with the winning money, that is the hardest.  I do believe it is not the winning that gets people hooked, it is the losing.  Once anyone looses they are constantly chasing the money down trying to get it back.  Which any gambler knows is absolutely impossible.
Until next time. Gamble responsible and frugally. And most of all wish me luck.