I am back! It has been awhile I know. I have started the count again. I am on day 6, not very long but it is a great start. Tomorrow will be one week, and I know I will not go there since I have a meeting all day and have to work early on Wednesday morning. I am not making any promises about the weekend. I have four days off in a row and unless I sell some of my bracelets so I can make more I will probably get antsy. That is when I get into trouble. I sit and think about all the money I need and knowing how fast I can make it at the casino it is difficult to stay home.
I have to remember the last time I went and it cost me way too much in time, money and self respect. I was an idiot and I knew it as I was doing it. I kept swearing that I was going to win so I kept going and getting more money. I was so sure I was going to win it all back, doesn't everyone? Don't we always think we will win it back? Just one more spin, just one more bonus!
I know I am not the only one to think they will win it all back. The casino is full of people who think they are going to hit it big, win it all back never do we think we will leave a loser. But more people leave a loser than a winner.
Every time I go over to Parx I look at that great big horses head they put up this year,and I wonder how much of it I paid for. We all know they can't build additions or larger casinos without the people who loose. Funny how I am very frugal about everything in my life except there. I show at Goodwill and Produce Junction to save. I do not buy anything not on sale. But I will sit and put money into those one-arm-bandits. Why? Is it the entertainment I am paying for? The chance of the big win? Parx really does not offer the opportunity to win that big, the only advantage they have is it is only a twenty minute drive as with going to the 'big' casino's in Atlantic City. For me to drive to AC it is an hour and a half even when I make great time. I like Atlantic City much better. There are better options for machines and the comps are much better. But oh that drive home is very long and I always have trouble staying awake on the drive home.
So maybe I will just stay home until I can fly to Las Vegas to the really big and best casinos?
I can really have more fun.
Until next time Gamble smartly......
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Thursday, December 6, 2012
24 Days
Yeah!!!
It has been 24 days since I went to the casino. Which is the longest time span in the past twelve years. How am I doing it? Every time I think about going I look at the time I will spend there and try to do something else I really enjoy.
One of the which is laying on the couch with my cats and watching TV, they enjoy it also. Now, they are used to having me do that they are waiting for me to turn on the TV, soon as I do they are waiting by the couch. Now even if I wanted to do anything else on the couch like read or crochet they don't let me. Funny but I really do not mind. I am just happy I did not waste my time at the casino.
Another of the things I do is make bracelets which are in another of my blogs. Follow the links to see it: suesladybugjewelry.blogspot.com I have sold a few and just today I am mailing out "prayer beads" someone bought last night. I really enjoy creating them. The links on the blog are to my eBay listings and are available for purchase there. My products are also on Etsy at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/Suestreasures2012 All purchases are shipped in one day and are 100% returnable (less shipping) if not completely satisfied. I am working on a beading pattern for breaking addictions, they will be something physical to hold and remember why we need to break the pattern and habit of addictions. Sounds odd but I do believe most addictions are a habit. I believe they are a habit which 'we' are able to break, just identify the trigger for the habit, and it can be broken. I think any habit is able to be changed.
For me the trigger to go to the casino is when I am upset, bored, or worried. For the most part it is not about the gambling, which is fun when I am winning, it is more about going some where alone and not feeling odd. I can go there and be around people and not talk to them if I do not want to. When I am not sure of what I wanted to do I would go there and waste the entire day, then rationalize it by saying there is no one to answer to, no one waiting for me at home. Almost like I was feeling sorry for myself! I also went when I felt hopeless and thought it would help, it did not. Sometimes I would go because I did not know what else to do. There were times I would really want to stay home and I would get dressed and go because somewhere in the back of my mind I thought, as ridiculous as it sounds, it was expected of me.
I still want to go at times, however, now I don't want to break this 24 day streak. I think I may drive to Atlantic City and go there, I will say it is not to gamble, and in my mind I believe that. I can say I do enjoy looking at the Christmas decorations the casinos there have. Everything is bigger! Brighter!
Maybe I could go there and just look around at the lights and decorations is what I will tell myself. Of course I will look at them and feel all the Christmas spirit. I will also think back to fifteen years ago when I went there and walked away with nine thousand dollars. I will not look back and see all the times I lost all the money and felt really crappy about myself. I will not remember the total desperation I felt driving home and how was I going to make back the money I had lost! How was I going to get into the bank the money I cashed checks for. All that is remembered is the fun part the winning part, the cash in hand part not the losing part.
And that is how we can break the 'habit' of gambling remember the bad parts. Consciously pull into my mind the bad times. Rationally look at the times I felt disgusted and beat. Look at the awful times and think about how that felt. Then look at how good it will feel when I do not give into the habit, do not make that long drive to beat myself up... I can stay home and lay on the couch with my cats and then beat myself up for doing nothing! HA but that is much cheaper! I will remember how good it feels not to spend the money I do not have on a wish. I will stay home and create new and better bracelets.
I can do this! I will do this! and I will make more money selling my bracelets than winning at the casino in the long run. Maybe, just maybe, I will make enough to go to Las Vegas in April to celebrate my mom's birthday.
That is all for now. Stay tuned and see if I can continue the streak........
It has been 24 days since I went to the casino. Which is the longest time span in the past twelve years. How am I doing it? Every time I think about going I look at the time I will spend there and try to do something else I really enjoy.
One of the which is laying on the couch with my cats and watching TV, they enjoy it also. Now, they are used to having me do that they are waiting for me to turn on the TV, soon as I do they are waiting by the couch. Now even if I wanted to do anything else on the couch like read or crochet they don't let me. Funny but I really do not mind. I am just happy I did not waste my time at the casino.
Another of the things I do is make bracelets which are in another of my blogs. Follow the links to see it: suesladybugjewelry.blogspot.com I have sold a few and just today I am mailing out "prayer beads" someone bought last night. I really enjoy creating them. The links on the blog are to my eBay listings and are available for purchase there. My products are also on Etsy at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/Suestreasures2012 All purchases are shipped in one day and are 100% returnable (less shipping) if not completely satisfied. I am working on a beading pattern for breaking addictions, they will be something physical to hold and remember why we need to break the pattern and habit of addictions. Sounds odd but I do believe most addictions are a habit. I believe they are a habit which 'we' are able to break, just identify the trigger for the habit, and it can be broken. I think any habit is able to be changed.
For me the trigger to go to the casino is when I am upset, bored, or worried. For the most part it is not about the gambling, which is fun when I am winning, it is more about going some where alone and not feeling odd. I can go there and be around people and not talk to them if I do not want to. When I am not sure of what I wanted to do I would go there and waste the entire day, then rationalize it by saying there is no one to answer to, no one waiting for me at home. Almost like I was feeling sorry for myself! I also went when I felt hopeless and thought it would help, it did not. Sometimes I would go because I did not know what else to do. There were times I would really want to stay home and I would get dressed and go because somewhere in the back of my mind I thought, as ridiculous as it sounds, it was expected of me.
I still want to go at times, however, now I don't want to break this 24 day streak. I think I may drive to Atlantic City and go there, I will say it is not to gamble, and in my mind I believe that. I can say I do enjoy looking at the Christmas decorations the casinos there have. Everything is bigger! Brighter!
Maybe I could go there and just look around at the lights and decorations is what I will tell myself. Of course I will look at them and feel all the Christmas spirit. I will also think back to fifteen years ago when I went there and walked away with nine thousand dollars. I will not look back and see all the times I lost all the money and felt really crappy about myself. I will not remember the total desperation I felt driving home and how was I going to make back the money I had lost! How was I going to get into the bank the money I cashed checks for. All that is remembered is the fun part the winning part, the cash in hand part not the losing part.
And that is how we can break the 'habit' of gambling remember the bad parts. Consciously pull into my mind the bad times. Rationally look at the times I felt disgusted and beat. Look at the awful times and think about how that felt. Then look at how good it will feel when I do not give into the habit, do not make that long drive to beat myself up... I can stay home and lay on the couch with my cats and then beat myself up for doing nothing! HA but that is much cheaper! I will remember how good it feels not to spend the money I do not have on a wish. I will stay home and create new and better bracelets.
I can do this! I will do this! and I will make more money selling my bracelets than winning at the casino in the long run. Maybe, just maybe, I will make enough to go to Las Vegas in April to celebrate my mom's birthday.
That is all for now. Stay tuned and see if I can continue the streak........
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Hi
It has been almost a month since I have written here, it has been a long depressing month. I have learned in the last trip to the 'big' casino they always win... We may gain a few dollars but, in the end the casino business always wins. I think the only way to really win is to own one. I have thought about working in one. I figure I could get the thrill of the casino and actually make money there. And the best thing is I would not be able to gamble. Yeah!!!
I still say when I hit the big lottery I will rent a penthouse in Atlantic City right on the beach above a casino. I would be able to ride the elevator down to the casino floor. I will be able to gamble my heart out since I hit the 'big' one and now have plenty of money to do anything I want. Maybe rent an apartment in Las Vegas also. My favorite is the City Center complex. It is right on the strip and next to the hotel my sister always stays at when she visits. THAT would be fun.
When I hit the 'big' one, I will do volunteer work with my time and continue to make my bracelets which are available on eBay. My other blog has all the links to them, find them at suesladybugjewelry.blogspot.com/
Maybe if anyone reading this hits it big would go there and buy a couple to help me along. I enjoy making them and they help to finance my gambling habit.
So the last trip cost me alot of money which I do not have and it scared me to really stop until I hit the 'big' one. A long time ago I watched a movie 'Let it Roll" which was about a man who played the ponies. He went to the race track and it followed his day while he lost and while he won. Anyone who gambles can relate to it. The highest of the highs and the lowest of the lows. Every time I loose alot of money I always wonder why I do it to myself. Lately even if I break even I get angry because I wasted my time there for a good part of the day which I could have been doing something else. Like cleaning or just relaxing.
Now I am trying that relaxing thing. Laying on the couch. Or writing blogs. Anything to occupy my time and make extra money. But I know I will go back.
My hope is the times become less and less, the losses become less and less, and the wins bigger and bigger.
Then I hope I can leave with the winning money, that is the hardest. I do believe it is not the winning that gets people hooked, it is the losing. Once anyone looses they are constantly chasing the money down trying to get it back. Which any gambler knows is absolutely impossible.
Until next time. Gamble responsible and frugally. And most of all wish me luck.
It has been almost a month since I have written here, it has been a long depressing month. I have learned in the last trip to the 'big' casino they always win... We may gain a few dollars but, in the end the casino business always wins. I think the only way to really win is to own one. I have thought about working in one. I figure I could get the thrill of the casino and actually make money there. And the best thing is I would not be able to gamble. Yeah!!!
I still say when I hit the big lottery I will rent a penthouse in Atlantic City right on the beach above a casino. I would be able to ride the elevator down to the casino floor. I will be able to gamble my heart out since I hit the 'big' one and now have plenty of money to do anything I want. Maybe rent an apartment in Las Vegas also. My favorite is the City Center complex. It is right on the strip and next to the hotel my sister always stays at when she visits. THAT would be fun.
When I hit the 'big' one, I will do volunteer work with my time and continue to make my bracelets which are available on eBay. My other blog has all the links to them, find them at suesladybugjewelry.blogspot.com/
Maybe if anyone reading this hits it big would go there and buy a couple to help me along. I enjoy making them and they help to finance my gambling habit.
So the last trip cost me alot of money which I do not have and it scared me to really stop until I hit the 'big' one. A long time ago I watched a movie 'Let it Roll" which was about a man who played the ponies. He went to the race track and it followed his day while he lost and while he won. Anyone who gambles can relate to it. The highest of the highs and the lowest of the lows. Every time I loose alot of money I always wonder why I do it to myself. Lately even if I break even I get angry because I wasted my time there for a good part of the day which I could have been doing something else. Like cleaning or just relaxing.
Now I am trying that relaxing thing. Laying on the couch. Or writing blogs. Anything to occupy my time and make extra money. But I know I will go back.
My hope is the times become less and less, the losses become less and less, and the wins bigger and bigger.
Then I hope I can leave with the winning money, that is the hardest. I do believe it is not the winning that gets people hooked, it is the losing. Once anyone looses they are constantly chasing the money down trying to get it back. Which any gambler knows is absolutely impossible.
Until next time. Gamble responsible and frugally. And most of all wish me luck.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
On my way
I decided to go to the slot machine hang out today. I know it is a no win situation however I really do not feel like staying home and I can't think of anything else to do right now. I really should clean or something constructive BUT and that is a big but, I am in the mood to go out.
Stay tuned, I will post all later when I get home. Wish me luck.
Stay tuned, I will post all later when I get home. Wish me luck.
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